After reading an aritcle, it got me thinking. His thinking post was very though provoking thus causing me to think about my life also.(which i have done also but not blogged it...)
Topic 1:My Future:
Sometimes I wonder to myself, if I will continue in the industry if I were to future studies in Aeronautical Engineering. Singapore's economy is too small and we have a rising population, no thanks to the speech about giving perks for more babies. This will mean more people challenging for my job and increasing the pressure.
Other times I think, people in this line of work are usually quite no-lifers due to the work shift. Its like those odd job labourers whereby you do not own your time. Its a matter of a phone call and you're required at the scene. The only difference is the pay. The pay may be enticing but if you're like that all the time, have money cannot spend might as well don't have.
Then I have a secret dream job but then sometimes when I see things which are happening around me, I feel that maybe its not suitable for me. My short fuse will blow and then bad things will happen. Haiz... If you really want to know you can ask me, but then I may not tell you.
Topic 2:My Present:
I'm quite a no lifer right now at least not for this week. My life is like: Wake up, slack, rot, slack, think of what to do, slack, rot, try and do something, slack, rot, sleep, and it repeats it self...
Haiz. I think my poly life is rather fulfilling. I've met quite a few new friends who are cool like that. Other than my class and my tutorial class, I don't really know much people outside my social circle. Which is quite a sad life cause the poly is so big and you know only a few people.
I also feel like I'm living in the past. In the past, my class is the class which raised the most hell and caused the most trouble in Express course. There I'm like damn open and can do anything but in poly, abit abit also kenna kahn by teacher and kenna this and that... I think it's the shyness or the not willing to open up to a new environment kind of thing.
Quoted from the article:
Think about it:
Would you rather be slightly introverted with a few close friends or extroverted with a wide range of friends.
I would rahter have a few close friends who will risk life and limb (in Syafiq's case) to do all sorts of crazy things. Haiz... I just miss the good'ol days..
Topic 3: Family Ties.:
Sometimes I feel like I'm not part of the family at all. My house is now like my hotel. I wake up, nobody at home, when I go out and come home, everybody sleep le. Then somethings, my parents ask for opinions, then when you give your opinions then they say you too picky. Then when you don't give opinions, they say un-responsive. =.=
Sometimes I'm just too lazy or too pek-chek to talk to my parents at all. Everytime I go out, where you going, why you must go out? Then that time when 2 weeks into holidays, I stay at home everyday they also make noise. Say what so lazy don't go out. Now I go out, they say I not at home helping out.
I talk to my brother on those occasions like, eh where is this and that? then my sister is like completely retarded. Everytime come and disturb then kenna scolded then want to KPKB =.=
My parents are the champion that's why I don't completely blame my sis for it. My father recently trying to clear leave. Whole day at home, then whole day come my room pick trouble with me. Lose liao then black face then don't want to talk.
My mother more champion. Everytime my father tio me, I say back then she sit there make input. Then when I say her, she not happy =.= Then both now want to cold war with me. Whatever lar... =.=
I think I'm worst than Shi Hong. I think I speak less than 50 words when I'm at my OWN HOME...
The best one was, I go out play soccer with my friends. Then my father tell me. No need study arh? I tell him holiday study what? Then he say study for next sem =.=... Champion of champion lor like that... My mother also another one... Go out with friends means girl friend... Then say what how can be just friends. Where got everytime go out one... I rest my case arh...
Recently also dunno why my temper damn bad. Little bit little bit I also must scold people. I believe its my ear infection. I tell my father a few days back, the doctor say my ear blocked with wax. Then I take medication a few days like. then he tell me he help me take out the wax. He say until like damn confident like that.
then he failed. this morning I wake up use cotton bud and drain fluids out of my ear. Got blood. damn champion. I tell him got blood leh. Then he say, not his fault. Lol... Then I tell him help me go register at the clinic for me. Then he say if I'm in pain then he help... Wah SI BEI DU LAN can! and SI BIE LAN LAN =.=...
Whole day tell me cannot do don't force. Then he himself failed in removing the wax in my ear and causing ear infection to worsen liao then he come out with so many excuse. It's a clear cut case lor this kind of thing. Kaki kong, kaki song.(ownself say, ownself shiok) =.=...
This house is just a hotel without price to me. No meaning at all de. Is like go back and sleep place...
On a lighter note, my mom is like trying to understand me and talk to me which I appreciate.
Topic 4:My friends:
On a much lighter note, I'm thankful for so many friends I've made in church, seconday school life. They have been a blessing to my life. My secondary school life was so much fun with them. I dare say I've matured alot because of them. People like ZX and SH and Amal have indeed played an important part in moulding my life.
My friends seem to be the only ones who understand what I'm going through. Through the experiences we share with one another, we forge strong and unforgettable bonds with each other.
My church friends have encouraged me through. Like Tim Loe. Always there with a smile and a bag full of advices. When there's a problem, he is there to solve it and advice you through it. Then I got my chat mate, EZ. Its either playing games or talking or watching youtube vids. I don't know but it seems we have forged a bond by doing this things and have a better understanding of one another.
Haha. I can feel the bonding. HX, Ctas, David, me, Ryan, SC, sLim. Haha.Although we haven really been together for so long as a group or clique but we still celebrate each other's respective birthdays and yeah... the bond is still there.
then the rest of the others whom I'm too lazy to update about.
But theres 1 exception. My broham ie my BFF. Haha.. It was nice catching up with him via sms and I apprecite him taking time of his busy schedule. Jia yous for your As=)
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I think thats all I want to say for now. I think it's only fair to let you all know since its my thoughts and those who know about my blog are my friends. And if you're family just like what the article said. You read liao don't come and talk to me about this. You're not supposed to be here in the first place. AND IM NOT EMO...
I'm staring out into the night And trying to hide the pain I'm going to the place where love can feel but they dont live the cost of fame In pain it feels a different kind of pain I wanna go home to the place where I belong where your love has always been enough for me I'm running from you know I think you got me all wrong I don't regret this life I chose for me But these places and these faces are getting old So I'm going home