Have you ever had the feeling?

It knocks so hard and it stabs the heart so bad

It makes one feel like a fool

A friend you made me feel

Comfortable I became around you

Until today…. until 5 minutes ago

You betrayed me and you don’t realise

It hurts and it breaks my heart

You didn’t have to

You should have came straight to me

You should have asked me directly

Then maybe, just maybe

I was going to tell you

You don’t have to pretend you’re my friend

You don’t have to pretend you care

You are not doing anyone any favour by doing so

Instead you are teaching me to be careful

Be careful of who I associate with

Be careful of who I share my deepest secrets with

I will be frank with you though

I wont pretend around you

I wont pretend I don’t see what’s going on

Fooling me to believing you’re my friend when you know what you’re up to

You took something away from me and to find out like this makes me even crazy because as a friend I trusted you and you broke my heart

I never realised the kind of person you are- but now I know –God opened my blind eyes.

I hate the idea of us sharing my plate of food when you knew you were seeking more information on me

I hate the thought that I opened up so much to you

I appreciated your presence in my life

I felt that if the two of us can bond, then people would realise that they also don’t need to fear anything

I it a made a mission to walk up straight and forget about people’s judgment because we were going to do it together

You and I made a promise to each other to carry on like nothing is wrong and

You broke that promise

How could you?

I know that crying and mourning about it does not help but

I really hate what you are

You broke my heart

Why you did it is what I keep asking myself

But, being who I am challenge is

Never trust anyone but God ever again!